wandering

everything i did to replicate
and to break apart the lies

where the truth in myself ended and
the face i could see now
blurred between the lines

i stopped looking into mirrors because
the reflection was so distorted
i turned into somebody i thought you’d like
then watched as you avoided me

never knowing when the day would come
i could see myself a little clearer,
or maybe even at all

carried all my darkest weights
just to see how it would cost my fate
something so bizarre
i never could have imagined

will someone ever tell me if it gets easier
or will i walk this path alone
like all the others that have led me here
condoned to be even more of a wandering soul